Its hard to put an exact date on when I started my slippery descent down the sticky slope of an eating disorder. All I know is that it was just over a year and a half ago that we knew something was wrong, and decided to seek help.
Things can progress extremely quickly once in the grips of an Eating Disorder, and its not an easy thing to escape from. Some people take the attitude that one should just be able to "pull yourself together and get over it", and trust me, we would if we could. I like to think of my eating disorder, the "The Problem" as I call it with my psychologist at CAMHS (the Child and Adolescent Mental Health Service), as a viscous dictator like Lenin or Stalin or a progressing relationship from that of a manipulating, delusional friend and deluded, cheated victim to harsh dictator and oppressed peasant.
I've been toying with the idea of starting a blog for some time now, and at last have given in to my curiosity. My intention is to not only write about what I love, (culture, literature, languages, films, travel and food), but also to find an outlet for the complications inside my head that arrived with my EDNOS (Eating Disorder Not Specified) and have stayed with my progression into anorexia, and if I can reach out to just one person who is going through something similar to me, and help them to feel not so alone and trapped, or help someone understand in more detail what an eating disorder can involve, I will have fulfilled my purpose and be able to live a little bit more happily.
I won't claim to be a master blogger, since my previous forays into the complicated world of the internet based diary have been slightly silly and very short lived, but I hope to stick this one out.
I look forward to sharing my wisdom and foolishness alike, and hopefully contributing usefully to the online community.
Yours,
The Anxious Foodie <3
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